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i'm such a nerd... help me!Am going half out of my mind trying to finish this long program by tomorrow (plan was for tonight but got such a bloomin' headache) in a language and in an interface i'm not too sure in. Sniff...And I'm not even having fun yet... And if I'm not thinking about that, I'm getting very distracted by my nerd-crush, Mr. Rhino, my longest lasting crush in the Philippines to date. And he's not even my type! (my type being still geeky but a pretty boy, lovely fingers.. eggplant fan). Speaking of, andie made me watch Battle Royale last night. If you've seen it, there's a lot of cute Japanese guys in it. And the 'homme de ma vie' (man of my life) is the guy on the laptop who made the virus... have to find nice pictures of him and plaster them on my desk top. AGAIN, i'm such a nerd. And the other cute guy is the 'exchange student' with the short hair, who has an uncanny resemblance to Marc Nelson. I wonder if Marc Nelson can speak Japanese. and the hell week begins![]() Sugar junkie! Pretty much me, except for the chocolate ice cream. Gave up chocolate for the New Year, you see. Got this link from my sister's site. Make your own South park character! Check it out here just had two hours of sleep last night doing a ten-page paper for French. Sniff... Then might not go to YOF tonight because have a module to submit tonight for our PS2 class... then this weekend is coding for our database project, 10 days to finish a .net program, a language i don't know YET. But i will.... Sniff.... Valentine's Week this week. What did i do Valentine's day? Had an exam. Oh yes, it's great to be a nerd! No complications. Sniff... Weird Facts
a very long engagement... perfect![]() ![]() osmosismy sister's addiction to online quizzes are rubbing off on me...
i look like the girl from silent hillthis is the third time I've looked like something straight out of a horror movie... Or like a burn victim. Darn allergies... Yesterday it wasn't even so bad. Okay, yes it was so bad, but at least it was just in the face. Today it spread. Ugh... Arrived from Baguio early this morning, everything was going wrong starting from when I woke up after my nap. I set my alarm early, and my alarm was set right but my clock wasn't. It was set 12 hours late. Grrr... Darn mobile phone clocks. And so I missed my philo class.And then I was trying to put on my new contact lenses so I could wear sunglasses to save my classmates from the distressful sight of my face, puffy eyes, splotchy cheeks and all. My left contact went in fine, but my right contact was stubborn. First it fell on the floor. Washed it and attempted to put it on my eye again. Fell on the mirror. Washed it and attempted to put it in again. Then it fell again and I couldn't find it anymore no matter how hard I looked for it. Was so pissed!!! Was complaining to God, was so close to losing my temper. I felt bad, was tired from the trip, plus PMS means my emotions are very volatile. Anyway, after I vented, He just told me to quiet down and reminded me that it's when I'm weak that I can rely on His strength more. That calmed me down. He fixed my contact lens problem not by finding my fallen lens but by rehydrating one of my old ones (it's weird coz I soaked both solid lenses but only one properly rehydrated... some kind of a convenient) and basically I'm just not aggravated anymore, my frazzleness has been replaced by peace yet again. But still... I miss my face. *Sniff!* Encounters...Tuesday, 1 Feb 2005: Breakthrough!My first real conversation with God! He is so amazingly not what I expected, and I think that's the whole point. The worst thing about growing up in a Christian family is that you grow up with ideas of who God is and what He can do. It's not the worst thing in the world, being raised up by godly parents protected me from a lot of grief. But the passion that new converts have from God, the extreme changes they go through (from street gangster to Sunday school teacher!) was something I was so envious of. My relationship with God was like that between couples who had celebrated their golden wedding anniversary, you know familiar. All my ideas of God, even the grandest of my imaginings, are too small to capture his reality. Growing up, I had all these expectations of who God was and what he could do, because I had already seen him work in my family. But now, he's ruining all my expectations. And I'm glad he is, because I now realize that all our expectations limit what he can do in our lives. We need to stop "expecting" and just "trust." You think you know, but you have no idea... We had a really long, meaningful conversation and the whole time I was like, "God, is this real or am I just making it up?" Doubtful me, still comparing my idea of how God worked with what I was experiencing at that moment. He replied, "You'll know if something is from me by its fruit. If you don't allow this conversation to bear fruit, to change your life, you may as well have been just talking to yourself. The real proof of an authentic, genuine encounter with God is change. And this change doesn't even have to come from you, you don't have to try because I am the one changing you. Just obey and allow me to make you better, make you into the woman I had in mind when I was designing you. Close your eyes, let go, and fall into me." I really love the song "Be the center." The chorus goes: Be the fire in my heart, Be the wind in my sails, Be the reason that I live, Jesus, Jesus... I really do want Jesus to be the source of my passion. Those who know me know that I'm a very extreme, passionate, hyper person. And God designed me that way. I just want him to channel all this passion to where he wants it to be. I'm so excited, but unlike my usual excitement which just bubbles over, this time it's a quiet and peaceful kind of excitement. God is the only one who can make me so hyper and so calm at the same time.
Speaking of eggplant...![]() Speaking of eggplant, look what i found while I was doing my regular tour of the comics available on MyYahoo... La lang. |
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